Prayer

Today (again) is not about the Word, sadly.. It's about the prayer meeting I had with the teachers of the Youth Group. And I was hoping that you guys who read this could also pray for these things too, because I feel that prayer from others will help us come to a firmer conclusion that comes from God, not just from our desires or decisions.. It was mainly about the retreat that will be coming up in June, and we don't really have a firm theme set yet. Although we mentioned many themes that are connected together in one way or another, we want to decide on a overarching theme, and a catch phrase that goes with it.. Some themes that came up: Revival: Freedom/Worship Culture of Prayer Offering Unity Some catch phrases for unity: OneVoice, IXOYE United Thanks everyone!

Overflow

I've been more consistent this week than last week... but it's not saying too much. I did though, hear a word of encouragement from Pastor Brian's message yesterday in youth service.. He said "Reading the word is like spiritually eating, and praying is like spiritually breathing. If you're not praying, you're suffocating" And while we were singing praise, we sang "fill me up God", with the intent of asking God "fill me up with your Holy Spirit". And although this was really good, the part that hit me that hardest was the word "overflow". It really made me think about how I've been living, and I feel that I've been lacking His presence in my life. If I keep seeking an overflow of God in me, I know for sure that whatever I do, it'll be more of Him and less of me. That's my prayer.

Struggles

Man, it's been more than a week since I've blogged/read the word according to the plan, and I feel like it's been longer. It's been harder for me to focus on God recently, because I feel that I've been caught up in all of the other things in my life. I remembered to read today though, and look at what God has in store for me: "The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge" It's safe to say that I've been struggling in taking refuge in God, and allowing Him to take over in my life. I've had this feeling before, of lacking passion in God because of the regular cycle of life. Even in a youth staff prayer meeting on Sunday, the first thing God put on my heart was pursuing God's presence, and breaking chains that hold us back. I feel the need to stop worrying about my family's situations, or my classes, or even the studying that I'll have to do over the summer, but it's really hard to stop worrying and putting it before God. It's time to go back to square one.